I Don't Wanna Grow Up

October 1st, 2025

Been wanting to make this for a while because it's sorta been eating at me the previous few months, and I was debating whether to actually write about this because it might make me sound pathetic (especially to anyone older than me who reads this) but straight up, I'm just terrified of growing old. And I don't mean growing old mentally, (or maturing, rather) that's honestly a good-ish thing, I'm talking about PHYSICALLY growing up. As I'm writing this I'm currently 22, but I've been scared about like, 10 years on from now and past that, for some reason my brain acts like after I turn 30 that I'm supposed to get super serious and not really allowed to experiment or have fun and that I'll lose my youthful-ish appearance, but that's extremely irrational, that's more like being 50 or 55, when you're 30 you're still relatively young AND can still look pretty young, hell even into your 40s that can be true to a certain extent, but my mind is just stupid. My biggest fears are like, being elderly especially, and of course the whole "dying" thing and what happens (or what doesn't, idk) after that, but that's getting a bit too deep and heavy for something I'm just writing somewhat quick, so I'll just leave it at that. I dunno, think I've just had too much anxiety over shit like this because I'm both likely gonna be living on my own in a year's time AND gonna be done with college in like 2 or so years then I'll have to get into a proper career.

TL;DR, quarter-life crisis. :P